We were never being boring

'Avoid boredom, which can make you feel tired.'

This is a quote from a wire story I'm editing for work about quitting smoking. The context is that some smokers (apparently) smoke to keep alert and this sage piece of advice was meant to help with that.

This kind of sums up my feelings about work, though. I'm wide awake when I wake up in the morning, and wide awake when I pull in the parking lot, but as soon as I get to work I'm making a beeline for the coffee pot (hey, that rhymes!).

I could certainly use an extra hour or so of sleep, but I don't think that's it. I *am* bored at work. I'm tired of doing the same old thing. And I shouldn't be. I get to be creative, within certain parameters. In fact, I'm probably not really fulfilling my job's potential, I guess. I could be *trying* to do more things.

I'm not sure if I'm bored because of lack of effort on my part or what. It *is* a dead end job, but it's much better than the one I had before. The pay sucks, however and what I do isn't really appreciated, at least not where it counts (did I mention the pay sucks?).

The problem with me is, I could be doing better. I know I could. At least, I *think* I know. The *other* problem with me is that I don't know what the hell I want to do. If someone offered me a million dollars to just figure out what I want to do with my life, I'd be broke. If someone put a gun to my head and asked the same question, I'd be dead.

It's pitiful really.

There's another song quote that I think about often. It's from that Harvey Danger song 'Flagpole Sitta.' The one that the guy above me in the barracks at Fort Campbell used to play loudly and repeatedly when it came out: 'If you're bored than you're boring.'

Which is probably true. 'I'm not sick, but I'm not well...'