On Anger

It just occurred to me that I hold a lot of anger in.

Oh, who am I kidding? I hold all of it in.

Why? It's purely a defense mechanism, I've just realized. If people
don't know what bothers me, they won't be able to 'get' to me. Plus, I
get to be above it all and don't have to descend into the fray.

It's silly, isn't it? After all, I do much more harm to myself by
keeping all that hurt and anger inside (high blood pressure, anyone?).
My job, my dad. Just two more recent examples of anger that I carry
around mutely with no intention of dealing with at all.

or, reason #167 why I can't sleep...