On Not Becoming Bitter

Due to some recent drama wherein I feel very under appreciated (and not sure I am able to bring about some sort of constructive change) I find myself slowly becoming bitter at work.

The worse part is a) I'm partly to blame and b) I feel like I have a duty to see it through, even though I'm not entirely sure what "it" is.

This misplaced sense of duty will be the death of me yet.

Due to the above underappreciation, it's (fairly) clear that my employers don't feel any such duty towards me, but I feel bad about leaving certain individuals 'in the lurch.' Not the corporation, mind you, but the people I actually work with (even if they share some of the blame).

It's too hard trying to be all oblique about everything, so maybe I'll post more later (maybe not).

(sigh) I guess this is how bitter old age starts.