Looking at the World from the Bottom of a Well*

I'm trying to figure out what's wrong with my life.

There's nothing *really* wrong with my life, of course. I'm just feeling a little bit melancholy. I'm not content, but I don't know why or what it would take to make me content. Not just now at this moment, but in general.

I don't really have any close friends. I don't really have any hobbies. I don't really have any pastimes. My life is pretty boring, really. Sad, miserable boring, not just uneventful. If I were a stranger telling me my problmes, I'd think I was a pretty sad case. I would probably tell me to get *out* there, just *do* something, for crying out loud. That's the only cure, really. Even *I* know that...

But then I think that my life is the way it is because that's the way I want it, whether it's good or bad. I'm generally pretty content to sit around the house, watching TV or goofing around on the Internet. I *like* my life uncomplicated, I think. But I do miss some of the more fun diversions. Other people can be hell, just like Sartre says, but, let's face it life gets pretty lonely without them.

*I got the title of this post, BTW from a cool new song from the lead singer of Soul Coughing. Apparently they broke up a while ago and he's on his own. This song is extremely catchy. Don't be surprised if you find yourself humming it without realizing it...

Ciao