On Regret

Do you ever look back on your life, or on a certain event in your life, and begin to realize how much promise you had then? How much promise the future held and how blind you were to it? And how little the future seems to hold now in comparison?

It seems so cruel, so unfair, that you can only realize how wide open the world is to you in retrospect. All part of the great cosmic joke, I guess.

What brings all this on, you ask? Well, for some reason I started thinking about the Tibetan Freedom Concert, the one that took place in San Fran in '96. I was there and I have such fond memories of it. It was a beautiful day, I was among friends, the music was good, the vibe was great, I was young, I was in San Francisco. What else can you ask for?

The really scary part is that one day I could be looking back on this moment, with my crappy job and broke ass, thinking, 'God, why couldn't I see how great I really had it?'

Bah, the bitterness grows...